Shit. I did it
again.
I swore this wouldn't happen
again, but (sigh) it did. I fell off my eating and workout routine yet
again and (gasp) gained weight! I have this nasty habit of working out
(which I hate), sticking to a regimen and getting awesome results to end up
reverting back to olds ways putting me back at square one. I get so close
to my goal and then start getting that false sense of security that I can start
getting more laxed and still have killer abs.
This doesn't happen
overnight, but a gradual progression of laziness starts to set back in. A
cheat meal turns into two. A missed workout turns into a week or
"rest" days. The repeated thought in my head that tells me you
can always start over again, back on track starting tomorrow. Then
tomorrow is the middle of the week and Mondays are clearly the best day to
start a new routine. Slowly, but surely, two months have passed and my
routine that once was has been replaced by a new routine of laziness.
The obvious happened. Skipping
meals, eating crazy amount of portions and skipping workouts led me to lose
most of my muscle tone and gain ten lbs. Duh. We all know that you
are supposed to eat 5 small meals a day, breakfast being the largest, eaten within
an hour of waking and avoid processed foods. Perfect world right? I
wish I had someone else to blame. Excuses are always easier than taking
responsibility for you own actions. Especially if we can blame someone
else, then our conscious is cleared and it's easy to do what you know without
any regret. Sometimes the hardest thing is to examine yourself and point
out what you are doing wrong. As for me, I'm pretty perfect and clearly
everyone else sees me the same way (insert laughter). What I am is
honest. I feel like I have a great ability to take myself out of
situations and see things from a biased, objective stand point. So I
decided to do that with myself and see what I was really doing that made me
quit on myself and have to start all over.
1. I had TOO
much time on my hands.
Sounds crazy right?? With all
that free time, why am I not working out and prepping my meals?? I always
hear the excuse that, "I don't have enough time to workout and cook
healthy." And I am saying the opposite. Summer Semester had
ended. No classes. No schedule. No homework.
Now I am the girl that avoids what I am
suppose to be doing by keeping busy with other things that I don't normally
want to do. It gives me a great excuse in my head that I am actually accomplishing
something, even though the task that really needs to be done, isn't getting accomplished. I will clean my whole
house to avoid doing homework and in my mind it is justified. When I
am busy working, running errands, cleaning the house, it keeps me on a routine
that when I sit down, I have to get up because I feel like there are other
things that I should be doing. My mind is stimulated and constantly
going, having creatative ideas and problems to resolve that my body doesn't
want to relax. It has to keep occupied and working out and creating
recipes and cooking keeps me active.
2. I turned on the TV instead
of the radio.
Well, I don't have a radio
besides the one in my car but my playlist on Pandora and 8tracks are mainly
upbeat Pop/Electronic or 80's workout, 90's Hip Hop and R&B that keeps me
jamming out and shaking my ass around the house gettin' shit done! When
on track, my morning routine consists of waking up around 7am-ish, opening all the blinds, turning on
the Keurig, going pee, letting the dogs out and then finding something you can
twerk to. It then leads to putting the dishes away from the
night before, vacuuming and other tidying up around the house. The day
continues from there. When I don't have a routine, 9am is the wake up
time and the TV gets turned on when drinking my coffee instead of the iPad. My
butt plops down on the coach and pretty much stays there for a few hours. INACTIVITY
PROMOTES INACTIVITY. Watching crap TV becomes an addiction
with no mental stimulation. Ever find yourself watching the same program
over and over again even when you have seen it multiple times and it is really,
really dumb. Why are you watching it??? Because of that reason, we
cancelled our cable last year, but I went back into that same slump. I
actually (this is hard to admit) watched all 4 seasons of the Vampire Diaries
in 5 days. AND I didn't even like it until somewhere in season 3. Let's
just say I am committed. Too bad I'm not as committed to my workouts.
Ugh.
3. I stopped posting taking
pics of my meals.
Welcome to IG right?
Scrolling through the feed and all you see is food pics. Sure it
gets annoying but those people are point! I love creating new recipes. The
majority being healthy alternatives to an unhealthy dish that you love and I
like the attention of someone liking it. Let's be real here. Facebook
and Instagram gives us all that pleasure of knowing that we are funny or
attractive or creative and that we are doing something right. A like or a
double-tap is acknowledgement that we are awesome and is pretty much a virtual
high-five! Meal pictures also provide us with accountability. You
don't have to post them online, but when I take a picture of what I eat that it
becomes my food diary. Who writes anything down anymore? Pictures
are so much faster and it provides me with ideas of what I want to make when I
plan my meals for the month. I get into the routine of eating the same
thing over and over and draw a blank sometimes when I meal prepping. We
pin a ton of recipes on Pinterest but I still have yet to go
through them and incorporate them into my menu.
4. Sexual
activity went on hiatus.
So you probably guessed it by
now. I'm pretty out there, up front and honest. My sexual prowess
went from tiger to praying mantis. As my meals got bigger so did the
giggle in my backside. Not feeling down to get down. This turned into a
never-ending circle.
The bf went out of
town for work for two weeks and watching series after series on Netflix, my
beauty routine took a blow. I did the basics. Showering, brushing
with an occasional shaving. But the hair didn't get did. The nails
didn't get did. The tan disappeared. The makeup was non-existent
and the clothes got baggier and comfier. Honestly it was great. But hot,
I was not. I didn't want to have sex with myself, none the less think
someone else wanted to. Orgasms are healthy. A stress reliever, a
mood lifter and a relationship booster. There are no arguments when you
are naked. But being a little on the fluffy side of my usually toned frame,
sex was the furthest thing from my mind.
Well here I am in my
former glory and now in my current fluffiness.
There is no one to blame but
myself, making it all in my control to fix. Every goal needs a plan of action. Time
to start over AGAIN and this time to make it stick! I have figured out
what works and what doesn't so I will be going to back to meal planning and
meal prepping to get my food portions back under control. I will however
be going mostly plant based this time around, limiting my meat and dairy
intake. My goal is to 90% vegetarian and striving for 1/2 of that to be
raw. Time to commit to my daily nutrition shake consisting of 70+ superfoods
(is that possible? nuts!) that keeps me energized, full and reduces my sweet
tooth, big TIME! In the past I haven't scheduled my workouts and just did
what I felt like doing that day which consisted of just the one's that I
liked-oy vey, but since I will be doing a combination of Shaun T's T25 and P90X2 a schedule is a must to stay on
track.
Someday isn't a day of
the week, but TODAY is and I'm starting on a FRIDAY. To me, that is an
accomplishment in itself! We all struggle with motivation and I am no
different than anyone else. Yes, Jaime Eason, we wish we could all look
like you but the majority of us don't want to do the work to get there. It is
ALOT of dedication and that is why I fall off track. Do you find yourself
doing the same thing??
Let's all help each
other.
<3
Lori
